On we go,
and it seems like –
all the power is outside of us.
And we are hoping,
and we are praying.
And the outcome is assured.
And the outcome is uncertain.
And I was thinking over the last few days one thought:
‘Don’t break our hearts, again.’
And the Event is coming,
and abundance is gonna flow,
and so and so is doing this and that
behind the scenes.
The awakening is happening.
The awakening is here.
Consciousness is lifting.
Consciousness is becoming clear.
Yet the lies, and the obfuscations, and the misdirection, and the misdeeds;
yet the perpetrators of all of these,
try to hide.
They try to stay hidden
in their hidey holes,
hoping to survive.
Until it is safe again.
So that they can wreak destruction,
and try to kill our Souls.
That’s just me,
callin’ it like it is.
And then I was thinking –
Don’t break our hearts, Q.
Don’t break our hearts, Angels.
Don’t break our hearts, President Trump.
Don’t break our hearts, God.
Don’t break our hearts, again.
I saw the divine masculine, retire.
I saw the divine feminine, retreat.
Yet I know this is an illusion, because
they showed up once.
They will show up again.
In our hearts,
the divine masculine has reawakened, and
the divine feminine is stepping forth.
Yet we don’t want to break our hearts, again.
So we suffer, hurting,
in that familiar place of pain
that feels like safety…
And I want to shout,
“D*mmit get up and do something!”
And I want to shout,
“F*#$ the illusion!”
And I want to shout,
“Stand up for yourself, man!”
And I want to say,
“Get to it now while we have some momentum
and the wave is building
and it needs
every one of us
who can to ride this wave of change,
and who can keep going.”
And then I realized,
that I didn’t want my heart broken, again.
And that this statement was fear-based thinking.
What am I willing to give up to stay in painful safety?
Because resisting the call of my heart
in this moment
seems to hurt more than it breaking.
There is nothing more I would like to do but get up and walk forth.
Yet I feel confused and emotional,
and my mind
in the moment
says: ‘What are you doing?’
How can I say this?
I have discovered that my heart is eternal,
as the representative of my Soul.
It doesn’t have to break, at all.
It can open to include everything,
in love and acceptance.
It is really my mind
that has the structure
that doesn’t want change
that wants things ordered
a certain way.
it thinks that is what is best for me.
And then I thought about
how much of my heart break
has been about events occurring
that I refused to accept
because they occurred
outside of mental constructs I held dear.
And my heart was hurting.
Because it wanted to love.
Because it wanted to accept the situation, but I couldn’t.
Because my mind felt so uncomfortable that it told me
that following my heart was the
And my heart pulsed out to me with longing saying
“Come, I love you.”
“Come to me and be
in a place where there is no broken.
Where I hold you in love.
Where we can be together.”
My heart and I
making me a more powerful and more complete person
than I ever thought possible.
I realized, that I had retired my will to step forth.
I realized that I had retreated, in listening to my mind, and in fear.
I didn’t want
to allow myself
to break my heart,
However, I have come to know
that my heart is loving,
my heart is flowing,
my heart is eternal;
an eternal link to my own Soul
that loves me
I want to live my life out of love.
There is nothing to fear.
I want to life my life joyfully,
Take that step forward.
When I look inside at the light that is flowing within me,
when I look inside at the strength of my heart beating, and
I realize that I have recovered my ability to truly love.
Freed from the matrix
of mental and emotional collusion,
open to my heart’s whisperings,
and my heart’s desires,
I know it is an illusion
that I could break my heart at all.
~ Susan V Lacerra
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