I’ve been reading astrology forecasts recently. Mind you, what I know about astrology you can fit on the head of a pin.
Nevertheless, I’m reading that five planets will be retrograde until the end of August. So what does this mean? I’m told that it means that change and movement is on the horizon…
When a planet is retrograde, its energies are turned inward and becomes more subjective.
So, I view this timeframe as an opportunity for change. And, that change applies to all who accept it, because we always have a choice in the decisions we make.
Movement occurs within first through the sacred process of release and acceptance, and manifests then without.
A bit of back story first…
About six months ago, during meditation, I experienced my home inside of me, and I was inside of my home. I can only describe it as an inside/outside experience. In those moments of clarity that come with such an experience, if felt as though the home was saying thank you.
My husband and I have lived in this house for many years. We’ve raised our family here. And, it has brought an amazing amount of joy and aliveness, experience and sadness, leaning lessons and growth. It’s been our ‘home’. It’s been our coming together. And, it’s been the sanctuary where our family has grown up. This house has provided an anchoring point for all of our lives.
The inside/outside experience wasn’t a sad experience. Actually, it was an experience of joy, and it brought with it a feeling of culmination or closure, so to speak.
I left the experience wondering what it meant and what would become of it. I wanted to be ready.
I’m a veteran of change. I’ve moved through my life putting one foot in front of the other. I’ve been on the spiritual path, knowingly, since I was nineteen years old. I’ve read, I’ve studied, I’ve applied, and I can see the expansion and the awareness that’s come of it.
Now, I’ve come to a place where I can state my intent, surrounding that intent with Light and Love, blessing it, without being attached to the outcome – or so I thought…
The rest of the story…
But, change can be a fickle. Some years ago, I facilitated a class in change management. The class began with a question. Think of a time when you experienced a major change in your life that you would call positive. What was that change? Why was it a positive experience?
The answers were amazing. They ranged from: A major change in my life was when I got married. A major change in my life was when I got divorced, when I changed jobs, when I lost my job, when I relocated with a job, when my children were born, and on and on. The list of answers was as diverse as the people sharing their experience.
The group agreed that one’s reaction to change had a great deal to do with whether or not they had initiated the change, or whether the change has seemingly been thrust upon them.
So, I’m looking at the inside/outside experience, wondering how it fits in with my overall acceptance of change and the process that I’m experiencing as the change unfolds. Because life happens simultaneously on all levels.
About a month ago, my husband and I decided that it was time to sell our home and downsize. The decision happened seemingly in a casual way. We’d both been thinking about it separately. For me, it was prompted by the experience I’ve described above. For my husband, it came about because of the maintenance and upkeep of an older home. Or so it would seem…
If we take the recent astrological news into account, it would indicate that the energies are moving in a direction that would guide us to be open to movement. This movement could be identified or described in many ways. It’s personal and it’s planetary at the same time.
I don’t know if I would be open to making a move if it wasn’t for the experience of communicating with the house. I wonder if the experience was a precursor of the need to, or the opportunity to, make a change. If a door has opened or is opening, do I want to step into it? What’s on the other side? What will my life be in a new place? It’s certainly my choice…
The meditation experience of communicating with the house has become profound to me. I realize that separation is only in my mind. While the house is brick and mortar, it is also energy. And I am energy. After living here for so many years, I realize that we are merged.
So, we’ve been exploring options, looking at new locations and homes. I realize that I’m having a hard time making a decision or a commitment. Is this the place that I want to be? And, I realize that the reason I’m having a hard time is because I’m trying to feel into it, trying to control something that hasn’t been created yet. Am I like the people in the classroom who view a change being positive if they have initiated it?
It’s our opportunity to create the change. The change encompasses and relates to the totality of who we are.
It’s funny really, and I can laugh about my thoughts and behavior because I am the creator of my own reality. Stepping into the void of a new and unchartered experience is an opportunity to take the next step, so to speak, on an individual level, on a collective/family level, on a community level. It’s local and it’s global.
As I unwrap the inside/outside experience and look at the symbols, meanings and potentials, I see many levels of possibility.
My home is my center point.
It’s where I’m anchored. It’s the temple within.
It’s the temple where the sacred space of my beingness resides and creates.
I am my home, and my home is me. There is no separation.
My home and I are one and the same.
In the reality of the Nowness, I’ve already moved and changed and morphed and expanded and ascended, and, and, and… I realize that there is a need to walk through, integrate, and thus demonstrate life, through the pathway of family and community.
I am so very grateful to realize that the meaning of this movement, and the alignment of planets offers opportunities to look at the connectedness of all of life from an expanded, positive and loving perspectives and angles. It feels like I’m walking through something that’s already happened.
… So, today a lovely lady and her realtor came to view the house. She left a message that the realtor passed on to us. She said, ‘Please tell them that I could feel the Love when I walked into the house.’
I don’t believe that I could have received a clearer message.
Written for Gaia Scenics’ View, an original column, called Connecting the Dots
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